What would you choose

What would you choose
a winning ticket in the lottery
or your house on fire

That's not too difficult

But is this a free choice
or a mechanical path of a think-feel body
that we observe through the senses
of that same think-feel body

It is amazing to see
how the mind
pretends to make the choices
to search for happiness
and to avoid pain

But happiness
is not in the finding
but in the not-searching

And suffering
is not in the pain
but in the avoidance